Thursday, September 15, 2011

Anxious and I go hand in hand.

I hate being anxious and I hate my mind going 1,000 mph all the time. That's why I know I'm blessed to have the husband I have that balances me out and calms me. He's the complete opposite. I can't stay still talking about one thing because while I am, I'm mentally creating a to do list of what I should be doing.

In fact, it's been so bad lately that I've created to do lists daily so I don't deter and am able to get everything done that needs to get done. On this list, believe it or not, I have to include "eat". I don't make time to always eat because I'm so busy doing other things. Right now, I decided to take a few minutes to blog about just that.

I read yesterday in my daily quiet time the following verse:

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." Psalm 139:23-24.
This verse was written for me. I want God to know my anxious thoughts (though he will whether I like it or not), because many times its those thoughts that push me away from him as a result of lack of trust in Him. He knows we naturally do this. Busyness is what keeps us from Him and anxiousness is failure to fully trust in Him while confiding in our own ability to do so.

There's freedom in releasing those anxious thoughts and allowing Him to reign. When he takes control, It's just so amazing and liberating. True peace only comes with Jesus.

I've blogged about this subject a few times because it's something I struggle with. It helps me to blog, hope it ministers to you as you read =)

"Joy comes in the morning." (Psalm 30:5)